Job Offer

Well, my first interview has turned into a job offer!  What the what!?  I am full of mixed feelings.  Here they are in no particular order:
1. I am super excited to know (as my brother put it) I am hire-able!
2. In my opinion, the interview went well, and with the offer, I was reaffirmed that it went well!
3. I am terrified at the thought of being a nurse.
4.  I don't remember anything from school.
5. Do I take the job, or hold out for a job in the unit of my choice?
6. Don't be a diva.
7. Man-up and realize wherever my first job is, it will cause anxiety, stress, fear and I will be overwhelmed (thanks for the reminder Erin!)
8. How do I make this decision!?!?!?!?!

I spoke with someone in HR when I was given the offer.  I asked when I would have to give my answer.  I have a week to make the decision.  I also asked the nurse manager to shadow on the unit (which is this Friday) to get a feel for the unit and to help make my decision.  The nurse manager is so nice and seems very accommodating.  She also gave me directions to get to the unit, but also said I can just call her and she would come meet me so I won't get lost.  Perfect as I am always lost going to a new place!!  I will go at 7am on Friday to see the start of the day shift.  I am not sure what I am going to wear to shadow.  Scrubs?  Professional attire??  hmmmmm

The job is on a med/surg floor at a hospital very close to were I live (plus!).  I really didn't expect to work in med/surg, as I really want OB or at least peds, BUT I have to remember that I have to start somewhere, I will gain a lot of great experience, it's close to home and a great hospital.  I also have three resumes out there with some connections to different hospitals and I worry that if I take this job, all of a sudden, I could possibly have more interviews in units I would prefer.  On the other hand, none of them could pan out and I would be left with nothing!  Why are big decisions so hard to make!!?

I am going to meet up with my advisor to talk about my concerns.  I am hoping, as a seasoned nurse, she will have some great insight, perspective and give me some solid advice to make this decision.  It overwhelms me to think I could be starting a job soon.  I hope I don't cry! haha

I have talked about this decision with my sister, sister-in-law, brother, mom, dad, and of course my Erin.  They all have great advice, but obviously, only I can make this decision.  I have to remember to relax, take deep breaths and have confidence in myself, my abilities and all the hard work I have put in to get to this point.  I have spent years getting ready to have a career and one that I hope to excel at and love!  I am also remembering I have promised the first 14 months of paychecks to Erin ;)

I am sure my next post will be whether or not I accept this job...here is to a weekend of talking, breathing, stressing, pros/cons lists and probably freaking out! (Sorry Erin)