Today Sucked

Today has sucked.  I really can't think of any other way to say it.  I am so over school.  I want to quit.  I want to walk away and not look back.  I do not want to sit in front of this laptop for another second.  I would actually like to throw said laptop and watch it smash into many pieces.  I want to punch something.  I do not want to research for my ethics paper.  I do not want to research for my trends presentation.  I do not want to research for my Montana project.  I do not want to study for my exam on Tuesday.  I do not want to set my alarm to get up early for clinical tomorrow.

 This sums up today.  My negative attitude had gotten me nowhere.  Erin went to visit her family today.  I wanted to go, maybe do a little shopping, sit by the pool and have dinner.  Of course I had a pity party here by myself.  Jax is here, but he is also moping because his favorite momma is gone for the day.  I shut the curtains to pretend it's not beautiful and sunny outside.  I just can't shake this negative attitude.

Erin and I went for a long bike ride yesterday.  It was hard, but felt good.  I am super sore today.  I am also going to make my negative butt go for a run later today.  Now that I wrote that here, I am hoping it makes me actually go for a run.  I need to try to get this bad attitude out!!

If only I could use all this negative energy for good, I would probably have all my work done.  22 more days until graduation.  That translates to only 10 more days of school and clinical.  Only four more days in clinical and six more days of lecture.  This means major freak out and overwhelmed Katie at the thought of two more exams, an ethics paper, a trends presentation, a clinical write-up and the huge population assessment poster project in that time frame.  Deep breaths.  I know this will all be over soon.  Just like a race, there is always a finish line.  All I can focus on at this point in time is the entire journey to get to that finish line.  All the work I have to do and how I just want to quit!!!!

Off to work, or run or to just stare blankly at the wall!